Thinking

I've got a whole lot o' time thinking while nannying. Not the best thing for a person that always analyze stuff to shreds..

But at least I know now what my view of life/religion/etc is. I don't now why but I just want to be able to answer when people ask me, instead of saying ''not atheist, but kind of''. I DO believe there's a God, like there's a mickey mouse - something we have created. But I don't believe in the bible etc. The 10 commandments - it's just common sense and they exist in every religion - ''don't kill, don't steal, don't cheat...''. So if someone asks I think the view closest to my thoughts are existentialism as told by Sartre. I'm too realistic to do or even want to believe in a God. Although my grandfather is constantly telling me '' I also left church when I was 20, you'll find your way back''. Like not eating meat is also something I grow out of... Acceptance, acceptance my friend!

And I constantly think about going back to Paris. I miss that city so much. Sitting in Luxembourg gardens, going to the west bank for italian icecream. It's the one place I always feel I need to go back to. That, and Malmo!!! My little Paris in Sweden.

I feel constantly tired. I sleep like 8 h a night. But still I cant seem to get enough rest. Lack of iron?.....I feel enervated. Maybe not the best if you take care of children...

Anywho, better luck tomorrow!
xoxo